you've got me twisted.

yesterday's job hunting, well, i have no idea what to call it. i don't know if it was a success or a failure. haha. and well, the search goes on. i'm still waiting on mwen. i wouldn't mind working at her uncle's. the pay is like a thousand, i think. no shit. tomorrow i have to call up fjbenjamin. or maybe i'll get my mother to ask. easier that way. she'll know the right things to ask and say. that place that winda made me apply at, called me up today. but, it's like they asked me to work one day a week, and by the looks of things, the pay wouldn't be that good either.

and, you know what? being the only nonsmoker in a group of smokers sucks like shit. get passive smoke blown in your face. and, with them people smoking cigarette after cigarette, you can imagine what i had to go through. haha. and, people, there is no such thing as social smoking alright. it's either you smoke or you don't. social smoking is just a wimpy arsed excuse. i think i have said it quite a bit this past week, and shall stop now before becoming such a nag. haha.

didn't get much sleep last night either. man, my timetable is screwed, i def needa get back on track. i have to go running with xuan tomorrow morning. for the first time, she'll be coming to my place instead. that'll be so good. at least then i would have no choice but to wake up. haha. i still remembered our failed attempts, where i couldn't get up or whatever and didn't make it in the end. after a week of that kinda nonsense, we gave up. haha.

anyways, that stupid girl still hasn't sent me any photos. and, i found someone who is more of a computer dud than me. XUAN! haha. ((:

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i don't wanna fall in the deep end again.
i don't wanna dive in head first again either.
more than ever,
i don't wanna be hung up ever again.

but, whatever.